Letters to Eden

by iravati iyer

wanted to eat today; didn’t. couldn’t muster up the energy, wanted maybe to see what would happen; sickness to delusion to madness to enlightenment. privileged I know- you won’t ever be afforded the same luxury. but wanted to know what it is like to be free; for us, only found in insanity. wished desperately you could taste it too.

hope you are well.

saw an apple. the red reminded me of your hair, against all else. think you would like them. had one myself- made me want to fly. but didn’t want to fly, exactly, just wanted to walk to you.

wanted to see you today; didn’t. can’t.

hope you are well.

why? not sure, really. wanted to maybe see survival without bias. wanted to see life without heaven. wanted to see you without him, Him. didn’t.

hope you are happy. satisfied. well.

love,

-lilith